Probability

Monday, 17 March 2014

I feel that one of the hardest things in the world would be adapting. Nobody, indeed, nobody likes change and every single time something or someone comes about and tries to alter or permeate through our wall of comfort, we get defensive and try to push it back out. I guess that's what people do most of the time. It's pretty easy to spot a person who can get along well with new people, and a person who's always alone. (I'm not talking about introverts and extroverts here)

It's more toward the perceptibility and how much you're willing to sacrifice out of yourself to accommodate others. At the same time, not being a push-over. I guess that's what people mean by "open-mindedness". You're not conforming to the beliefs that others have, whereas you're holding on to yours, but you are accepting of their beliefs too.


I always thought it was a done deal because I'm rather easy-go-lucky and I an an extrovert. But I've come to realize that being open-minded is a lot more than that.

Coming from Singapore, the biggest problem for me is the change in the class and cultural difference of the people I meet and know. Getting to know someone different and unfamiliar is intimidating at the start, though interesting once you get to know each other more but being friends with them is another matter altogether. I would draw a line so thick between an acquaintance and a friend. Other than the chemistry between friends, it's a lot of sacrifice and hardships (albeit the fun times) that you have to go through to strengthen it. As iron sharpens iron, friction is essential.

I'd like to believe that I pick my friends wisely and carefully, and at the same time I always keep my guard up toward people that I dislike within hours of observing and knowing them. One might say it's wrong to judge a person by his cover and to not give them a chance, but who's to say what is definitive right and wrong? The way you do things and the way I do things may not concur but there are no moral issues here.

Knowing the difference between being open-minded and picky about friends is something that I still need to learn and understand. New is silver, but old is always gold. It'll never hurt to have more friends because another friend gained is another enemy avoided.

The opportunists call it "networking"
The optimists call it "wide circle of friends"
The pessimists call it "keep your friends close and your enemies closer"

At the end of the day, if it doesn't click it will never click.

We all long for that sense of familiarity, even more so for me, since there's none that I know of now. (And the only one that I did know has left Korea yesterday) That simple touch of "home" that we have been away from for 3 weeks. It doesn't seem long, but when you go through a mundane and repetitive schedule, it'll be long.

I would go on and on about how I wouldn't miss Singapore because I love Korea more, but at the end of the day it's not just about the country, it's more of Home that I miss. A place where it's familiar, a chair which fits your butt perfectly, and a bed that wraps you up ever so tightly and comfortably. A friend is just a call away and your hiding place is just a cab ride away. I miss my parents, my pillars of strength and comfort, and going home to them. I miss my friends who mean the world to me, and how everyone is so near.


I'm having the time of my life here, and it's what I've wanted for so long, to be in another place, experiencing a different culture and learning something NEW, and not something that everyone does the same from my country. So worry not, tough times don't last, tough men do.

A simple note from a brother that I will always miss; the best man to my jittery wedding day. (hahaha)


I have not been this emo nemo for a long time, but it's great. I spent the day thinking a lot and feeling a lot too. I guess this all started yesterday when I finally took a step to let go of something I held dear to me for a year and a half. It's been my life and it's been my attachment. This feeling of losing a piece of me really pulled me into mulling over every other thing that I've been keeping at the back of my mind. It'll tide over in a few days...

On the bright side, it's great to be making money off a joy that I've enjoyed for a year and a half but it really hit me hard when the friends I'm quitting with said "no turning back". There's a big difference when you quit with all your equipments and assets intact but another thing altogether when you either sell it all or break it all.

Nobody other than gamers would understand this. It's not just about the "they're just online friends" but it's more toward the bonds forged and the friendships made. There are no barriers in friendships as long as there is communication. You can share as much about yourself to a person you've never met and they could be the very best friend you've ever had in your life.

Truth be told there's really not much difference between the two except one is physical and the other isn't. But at the end of the day is it the physical that lasts or the invisible? Everything physical will perish with time, but the intangible lasts forever.



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